Following up that *sigh*...

Well, I took my own advice and broke out the mala beads once my little one was in bed... 108 metta wishes later, I was back in a good place. Managed to devote the remainder of the evening to dhamma, and ended it with a solid sitting session (so two days under my belt in that goal). None the less, I was still fairly excitable this morning... didn't want to get out of bed, or the shower, or spend the hour getting my little girl to day care... plenty of aversion, but once all the deeds were done, I was able to notice it and let it go (read: not long before sitting down to write this). Addmitadly, there are a few contributing causes to the recent agitation... quitting smoking, combatting a cold, and less than adequate rest... so I guess to some degree, it's been a dependant origination teacher. Even so, mindfulness is still taking a backseat in times of stress... and I see two important things as a result... 1.) there is room for improvement in mindfulness, and 2.) there is desire for improvement... Long story short, I've still got a very long way to go *grins* Major Metta! UA