More of the same...

Last night was spent re-cooperating from Sunday's festivities... caught a couple tv shows, relaxed... blah, blah, blah. Long story short, 3 days under my belt without meditation. Hope to break that streak tonight. I am still making some efforts towards sila and mindfulness... but much of the same to report there too. "Right speech" remains the biggest challenge, but overall sila is solid... mindfulness still comes much easier under low stress conditions. Both yesterday and today there has been a noticeable "clouding" of the mind... fallout from breaking the 5th I'm sure, likely compounded by lack of efforts in meditation too. Kinda like two steps forward and one step back... there's a song about that, right? As I've said, it'll be my aim to get back on track with the meditation tonight... I'll likely go for refuge in the Sangha (read: visit the wat) in the near future (at some point before this week is out). Maybe formally taking the 5 precepts (from one of the monks) will help me keep to them a little more closely... again, I don't put a lot of stock in puja... but, hey... it certainly doesn't hurt. Overall, a bit jaded today... but stumbling (and coming to terms with it) isn't the most pleasant experience... and to compound matters it's been a fairly stressful day in the office... hopefully I can turn it into an opportunity to see Dukkha and it's nature... but we'll see if I'm wise enough for that *winks* Metta! UA