Well, haven't said much lately... because there hasn't been much to report on this front. A little too consumed with this or that "distraction" to devote the requisite effort to my practice. The saving grace, is that such indiscretion (like all things) must come to an end. It will always culminate, and one way or another... you'll notice it's time to get back to your practice (or at least I do...). Usually it's something painful (a death of a loved one, a particularly unenlightened action on your part--read: regret), but then again sometimes its just that ever-present nagging feeling that something is "off", a feeling of disconnect... that's where I'm at today. So I've decided to take an "entertainment fast" this weekend. Basically abstaining from TV, Movies, Games, frivolous reading... in favor of more time on the meditation cushion, and studying the Dhamma. Kind of like a mini-mindfulness retreat of sorts. Not quite taking it to the 10 precept/novice ordination point (read: I can't easily avoid eating after noon, and diddling my little lady *grins*), but I'll strictly adhere to the 5 precepts, and maybe a few more (i.e. high beds, beatification would be easy... as I'm a dude... and I sleep on a futon). So call it an 6-8 precept weekend *grins*. As in:
Refrain from killing living things.
Refrain from stealing.
Refrain from unchastity (sensuality, sexuality, lust).
Refrain from lying/incorrect speech.
Refrain from taking intoxicants.
Refrain from taking food at inappropriate times (after noon).
Refrain from singing, dancing, playing music or attending entertainment programs (performances).
Refrain from wearing perfume, cosmetics and garland (decorative accessories).
Refrain from sitting on high chairs and sleeping on luxurious, soft beds.
Refrain from accepting money? (well I won't be taking any, but certainly can't avoid spending it)
Anyway, there are several reasons I'm doing this. One, I've been "chasing the dragon" so to speak in regards to intoxicants (drinking/smoking), I've had little discipline with my diet or exercise plans (fast food, blowing off the weights)... I've been too consumed with self gratification in general (tv/movies/games, getting tore down) and it's just not doing me any service. It's been my experience that a little mindfulness will go a long way to solving such problems, bringing ones life into perspective and what not... add focus, and a sense of well being. Both of which I could certainly use a heaping helping of these days. With any luck... I'll come out of this a little more "connected" with my family, a little more focused on what's important, and just a little bit better person all around... well that's the goal anyway :P
Expect updates.... Bigtime Metta UA
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